Breath by Breath

One thing  I have learned the last several breathless years is to hang on to what is important even if it is by your finger nails.  There are times, for me this has been on long haul, that confusion, desperation and even selfishness seems to trump everything else. I am hoping  that I am nearing the end to that season in my life.  Things seem to be slowing down and improving.  My prayers is freedom and courage.  Freedom from my past and courage to move forward and to be the best me I can be. 
To my dismay, my oldest son had to leave college do to financial lack. He is doing remarkably well and may has applied to work in the next town South of here. He is not sure what he wants to do next.  Save and go back next year or just move on.  All he knows is he wants to be in full time ministry and he is trusting the Lord to direct how he gets there. 
Life is amazing and I want to live it to the fullest. I am tired of getting by, you know, surviving.  I want to dance... Dance the dance of celebration during the good times, hold on to people who love me and slow dance through the times of grief, make my own beat during the times of change.  Love and be loved without fear and work at and for my relationships with respect and compassion.  Breath in, breath out...lift my hands to the Heavens and twirl...with grace I want to dance my way through it all.